It’s
10:55 PM on Tuesday. And here I am sitting in the dining room of my parents’
house wondering what I am going to say on Thursday morning at 11:00 at Dr.
Don’s Celebration of Life, particularly since I am the host and first speaker
on the program. Of course, I’ve known for almost two months that I need to
write this, but the words won’t come because part of me somehow can’t believe
that he’s really gone.
About
a week after Dr. Don’s death I was on Instagram just scrolling through trying
to distract myself from myself. I see the familiar handle “Dad Jokes”- this is a
guy who posts tons of stupidly clever jokes and puns - and I eagerly read the silly joke…Here it
is…
“I’m
reading a horror story in Braille. Something bad is going to happen. I can feel
it.”
I
chuckle and immediately start to text the joke to Dr. Don like I’ve done a
hundred times before because I know he’ll probably groan and then call me with
a much better joke of his own, but I stop myself…no Dr. Don to text.
When
I was in college back in the stone age before cell phones, my dad would call at
odd hours to tell me jokes. Someone would pound on my dorm room door and shout,
“You have a call!” I would run to the stuffy little phone room to plop myself
on the uncomfortable orange plastic chair and say, ‘Hello?”
“Hey,
it’s Dad. I have a good joke for you…” and then he would launch into whatever
joke he was telling everyone that week. Complete with crazy voices, sound
effects and his own laughter. He’d finish with a flourish. He’d say
triumphantly, “That’s a great joke. Isn’t that a great joke?” but before I would
have a chance to answer he’d say, “Alright, Pup, I’ve got to be getting back to
work. I love you.” And then he’d hang up leaving me sometimes laughing and
sometime staring at the phone in wonder that he took the time to share that
dumb joke. Now, of course, I appreciate every one of those jokes that made me
laugh. Or shake my head. Or groan.
Tonight
there is no laughter. My parents’ house – also my childhood home - is silent
except for the tapping of my fingers on the laptop and the low hum of the air
conditioner. My daughter Esme is finally asleep after much stalling. Mom took
herself off to bed half an hour ago. Diane and Matt’s flight doesn’t arrive
until well after midnight.
Here
I sit. Stumped. How on earth do I sum up my dad’s life in a few pages? It seems
impossible.
Earlier
today I lament my lack of progress to my mom.
“Are
you going to be able to get it done?” she asks.
My
brain shrieks, “Nope! Not going to happen!”, but I hear myself assuring her
that I will get it done. Then we start swapping stories about Dr. Don. Eventually,
she asks almost as an accusation, “Are you going to tell THE story? You’re
going to tell it, aren’t you?”
“About
how you stalked Dad?” I reply. “It’s a good story…My Mom, The Stalker.”
She
laughs, “I was such a wallflower. I can’t even believe I did that!”
She
tells me the story for the umpteenth time and I listen as eagerly as if it’s
the first time I’ve heard it. She says, “I was working in the Registrar’s
Office at Brooklyn College and in September this really cute guy walked in. He
was wearing a light blue suit and he was tan. I saw him and that was it. He had
no idea that his life was about to get a lot more complicated.”
“Did
you tell anyone?” I ask.
“Sure,”
she replies, “I told my mother I met the man I was going to marry. Then I found
out who he was. He would take his coffee breaks in the cafeteria in the Liberal
Arts building, so I made sure that I was there during those breaks. I would
wave to him and smile. It took a few months, but he finally asked me to sit
down. I did and then I asked him, ‘So, are you married, engaged, have a
girlfriend…?’ He didn’t. And he was really polite so he felt he had to ask me
out. He asked me if I would like to go to the Museum of Modern Art with him one
Saturday afternoon. Our first date was on December 12th, 1959.”
As
my mom retells her part of the story, I remember my Dad’s side of the story. He’d
say, “There was this cute girl. I didn’t know who she was, but she was always hanging
around, smiling and waving at me. Finally I asked her to sit down. You know the
rest. Our first date was at the MOMA,” here he pauses then begins again in a
voice still full of awe at the magnitude of his good luck, “All I knew was that
this wasn’t like any other first date I had ever been on. Your mother was smart
and funny. She knew all about art. I think we both knew right away this was
something different. I was overwhelmed.”
They
were engaged in March of 1960, but didn’t marry until August 1961 so Ellen
could finish her senior year. Ellen moved to Kansas City with Don so he could
complete med school. Then it was off to Grand Rapids for Don’s internship followed
by residency in Columbus Ohio. That’s where I entered the picture. Diane arrived
3 years later in Fort Lee, New Jersey. Eventually our family settled in
Hillsdale, New Jersey. However, that only lasted a few years. Grand Rapids came
calling again. We moved here in 1975. Dr. Don purchased a totally unique mid-century
modern house without my mom ever having seen it. He knew she would love it. And
she did.
I
take a break from writing this speech to get a drink of water, stretch and wander
around said mid-century modern house.
It
occurs to me as I look around my childhood home that it is a far cry from Dr.
Don’s modest beginnings in a 2-bedroom apartment in Staten Island, New York. My
grandparents owned a dry goods store. They worked long hours and did their best
to provide for their two kids. Don and his sister Phyllis didn’t lack for the
basics and even had a piano and piano lessons (quite a luxury in their
neighborhood), but there weren’t many other extras.
Earlier
this week I chat with my Aunt Phyllis. I ask her about when they were kids.
“Your
father was such a good big brother to me,” she tells me. “Our parents worked a
lot and he needed to take charge of me when they were at the store. He never
made me feel like I was a burden to him. I always looked up to him. We knew all
each other’s friends. We double dated when we were in high school. He even gave
me little pointers on what to wear and how to behave. There was real mutual
respect between us. He took good care of me.”
I
ask her about my dad deciding to become a doctor.
She
laughs, “He had no choice. We were indoctrinated by our parents from the time
we were little. Donny would be a doctor and I would be a teacher.”
Is
it surprising that my dad was a good and responsible big brother? That he took
care of Phyllis with kindness? Or that
he became a doctor? No. That’s who he was. He took care of people. His parents
might have pressed him to become a doctor, but I believe caring for people was as
natural to him as breathing.
My
dad’s skill and dedication to taking care of people meant that he worked long
hours. We understood that there were sick people who needed him. However, this
meant that Dr. Don focused on quality time with his family rather than
quantity. He took Diane and I to see Marcel Marceau when we were kids. I was an
aspiring cellist so Dr. Don arranged a Father – Daughter date to see Yo-Yo Ma.
There were annual fall treks to Robinette’s Apple Orchard for fresh cider and
cinnamon donuts.
And
weekends when he wasn’t on call wouldn’t be complete without a trip to the
American Bakery to purchase freshly baked rye bread and, of course, each of us
girls got a raspberry Linzer Torte Cookie. Diane and my dad were enthusiastic
runners and often ran together around our neighborhood and later in California
where Diane lives. I am a dedicated couch potato who loves to read and watch
movies so my dad happily sat with me to chat about books and old movies.
“What’s
your favorite movie?” I ask him.
Dr.
Don replies, “’Roman Holiday.’ I was 15 when I saw first saw it and when Audrey
Hepburn came on the screen. Ohhhhh…I didn’t know what hit me.”
In
the summer we lounged happily by the pool. My parents would get on the phone to
their friends to announce “The flag is flying!”, which meant, “Come on over,
the water is fine.”
And,
of course, there were vacations. My parents were avid travelers and Diane and I
were lucky that they instilled in us a love of travel as they planned amazing family
trips to places like Washington DC to visit the Smithsonian and the White
House, Colorado to ride horses, Boston to visit the USS Constitution and the
Museum of Fine Arts, and New York to visit the Metropolitan Museum of Art and to
attend the theater.
I
should note here that I’m fairly certain Diane and I were the only children
ages 8 and 11 attending the Broadway Production of “The Best Little Whorehouse
in Texas.” Us kids had no idea what the show was about, but I remember loving
all of the energetic singing and dancing. Needless to say, Dr. Don and Ellen
got a lot of side eye that evening from all of the folks sitting near us.
My
Dad also treated himself and my mom to annual child-free vacations usually
someplace overseas. During the course of their almost 58 years together they
visited most of Europe, Russia, China, Japan, Morocco, Egypt, Kenya, Ecuador
and The Galapagos, just to name a few.
When
I am about 9 years-old I get up the nerve to ask my dad about he and my mom’s
upcoming trip abroad. He is sitting in his chair in the family room listening
to classical music and reading the newspaper. I ask him, “Daddy, how come Diane
and I don’t get to go on this trip with you?”
Without
missing a beat he looks over the top of his paper, replies with a straight
face, “Because they don’t allow children in Europe,” and returns to reading his
paper.
I
pause again to stretch, take a sip of water and then re-read what I’ve written.
There’s
so much that’s missing. What have I forgotten?
That
by example my dad taught Diane and I the value of dedication, hard work and a
strong work ethic.
That
my dad was incredibly generous with everyone. You’d go out to dinner with him
and at the end of the meal as you’d try to split the check he’d wave his hand
at you and say, “I’ve got this. It’s my pleasure.”
That
his generosity extended to bigger things and included a commitment to giving
back to the community. He and my mom are long-time philanthropists. My dad
believed that those who have the means are responsible for supporting the arts
and other worthy non-profit organizations. And not for any kind of recognition,
but because it’s the right thing to do.
That
he wanted his kids to have the things that he didn’t have when he was growing
up and he worked hard to provide them for us.
That
when my mom was in serious condition in the hospital a number of years ago, my
dad said to me, “I think your mom could probably live without me, but I don’t
think I can live without her.”
That
he was intellectually curious and loved to learn.
That
he was gregarious and had a seemingly endless capacity for talking with
everyone and anyone. A number of years ago I send Chris with my Dad to Costco
to keep him company. Upon their arrival home Chris pulls me aside and says,
“Omigod, EVERYONE at Costco knows your dad. And he knows all of them. By name. It
took forever to get through there because he talked with EVERYONE.”
That
when he really got laughing he would laugh so hard that no sound came out.
That
his favorite exclamation was “Holy crow!”
That
he always wore a tie to work and his tie collection took up an entire wall in
his walk-in closet.
That
when they were young and poor, my dad would donate blood so he could take my
mom out.
That
he was a teeny bit Type A and demanded a certain level of excellence from the
other doctors and the nurses with whom he worked.
That
nurses were kind of terrified of him.
That
he got a great charge out of goosing my mom’s bottom then turning to us with a
leering grin to say, “That’s good stuff!”
That
he was always a night owl and did the late feedings and diaper changes when
Diane and I were babies.
That
he LOVED great food.
That
he was an awesome grandfather who’d give Esme horsey rides on his knees, have
long conversations with her, and make her shriek with laughter by pretending to
steal her belly button.
That
one of his greatest passions in life was classical music.
That
his greatest passion was teaching.
Earlier
this week I took some time to read the many sympathy cards and letters
addressed to my mom and our family. All of you had so many wonderful things to
say about Dr. Don that it seemed appropriate to end with your words.
“Dr. Arlinsky was such a gem! We will miss our
chats and stories in the front yard. He was so very proud of his family and the
life he built here.”
“Don was always ready with a smile and a joke.
He was a generous soul who seemed to welcome everyone he met.”
“I never saw anything but a smile or an
infectious grin on his face, usually before symphony or a concert at Saint
Cecilia.”
“Don was one of a kind and had a tremendous
impact on everybody he encountered.”
“A rush of memories come to me – all filled
with Don’s laughter and generous spirit. You were a wonderful team, a dynamic
couple and obviously in love. Dr. Don’s spirit will endure through the many
people he touched through a lifetime.”
“We have thought of you and Don often in the
last few weeks and especially at the Lincoln Center concert. It was wonderful.
It was also a testament to you both as so many enjoy the results of your
commitment to these programs. We will never hear another concert that meets
that standard without thinking of you both – avid, knowledgeable listeners and
spirited critics. We are fortunate that our circles have overlapped with
yours.”
“Don helped so many people over the years. His
legacy, however, will live on in how he shaped and molded future generations of
physicians. I feel honored and privileged to have been his colleague.”
“Don was such a fixture of training for so
many docs that his medical legacy will last for many many years. I first met
Don in 1978. He was kind, sincere and thorough. His sharp wit and ability to
penetrate to the heart of an issue always made for insightful conversation and
medical learning. His hieroglyphics for handwriting were hilarious and even he
couldn’t read them back at times. He was a generous person and in spending a
lot of time with him during training, I benefitted from his professional and
personal experiences. He repeated what he did for me with literally hundreds of
docs in training. Unbelievable devotion! His medical ethics and dedication were
legendary. I did not want Don to sit alone during your surgery at Metro. In
sitting with him, I asked him to fill me in on the details of his upbringing,
deciding to become a doc, meeting you, early practice years, and moving to GR.
Such a rich life! His last teaching moment: how to work hard, incredibly hard,
dedicate his life and work with medical excellence and balance as much as
possible a loving life with you and your family. He was so clearly proud of and
devoted to you and your children. He will be missed, but remembered.”